Small little nothings

The month of November is always a special one, it is always a month where we are especially grateful for everything we have. The past few weeks I have stumbled upon some amazing things that I am so very grateful. Some of these things include:

• One that sticks out to me is the Priesthood and the gospel, ever since leaving for school I have realized I cannot go through out this life by myself. With midterms, homework, tests, work, and boys, life as we know it has gotten very stressful and hectic. I look into the the unknown and have no idea what is going to happen. I don't have a set plan and as of right now I am completely okay with that. I know that if I stay close to my heavenly father and truly pray for guidance, everything will be okay. And when I truly feel like my world is falling apart I know I can always turn to my father for comfort and for a blessing at any time. Being at school it has been hard to realize that my father isn't living under the same roof. I can't just turn to him anymore. I am truly grateful for the priesthood holders in my life that would drop anything to come to my aid. 
• I am so blessed to be a member of my family. My relationship with my dad and mom has grown so much since moving to school and I feel like I can be open with both my parents about anything. I am so blessed to have the support system I have and I hope to one day repay my parents for all the stress and craziness I put my parents through. I will admit I was not the easiest child to raise. I was and still am a very strong headed child that does not like being told what to do. When they would tell me to not do something it made me want to do it that much more. And I am so grateful for the wonderful brother and sister I have. Camille was always someone that accepted me into her friend circle and she always tried her best to include me in everything she did. I am so happy for her and James, but at the same time I am sad to see her leave the house and start a new chapter in her life. She's always been MY sister, I've never had to share her with anyone before. Brice has grown up into a fine young man and although he can be a butt head sometimes I still love him! We have bonded a lot over the past year and I can see him growing up into a fine fin gentlemen.              
• I am grateful for the chance I have to get an education. At time I complain and whine and truly hate school, but in the long run I will be very very blessed for enduring to the end and completing my education. I am so blessed to have the resources to go to school and full support for my parents. I know that one day it will become very useful and I will be thankful I stuck to it.
• And of course we can't forget all my friends that keep me sane. At times living with 5 other girls I find myself going crazy from all the estrogen living under one roof. I have gained some amazing friendships that I am so grateful for. They don't care that I'm a freakin' nut, or that at times I can be a spaz. They accept me the way I am and I feel truly blessed that I can turn to them with anything I need. 
• Oh and I almost forgot Thanksgiving break, who doesn't enjoy 3 days of school off. I'm pretty sure its the best break of the entire school year. What other break do you go spend time with your family and eat until you're beyond full? Yeah I'm pretty sure its by far the best.

I am so grateful for everything I have and whatever the future may hold. I am excited to see wait lies before me and am ready for whatever is thrown my way!







And I'm thankful for Mikelle! ;)

Dear wonderful people down stairs...

I am writing this letter, not because I enjoy your loud noise and constant partying, but because it is somewhat interfering with my already crazy sleeping habits. Your laughter and loud voices are a great thing to lull me to sleep at night, but I do please ask you to cease and desist from using such loud volumes while talking. When I can literally comprehend every word you are saying from the floor above, I think we do have a problem at hand. I do understand we are in college and "girls just wanna have fun", but this girl does not want to have fun at 1 in the morning. All I wish to do is curl up in bed, with my dinosaur sheets and my Eeyore pillow pet and slip into a peaceful slumber. And dream of unicorns and rainbows and other pleasant things that I find joyful to my life. Thank you for taking the time to look over this letter, even though we all know it will not phase you one bit. 
With all the love in the world..... Audrey Nokes

I Love To See The Temple...

 I love to see the temple.

I’m going there someday

To feel the Holy Spirit,

To listen and to pray.

For the temple is a house of God,

A place of love and beauty.

I’ll prepare myself while I am young;

This is my sacred duty.

 I love to see the temple.
I’ll go inside someday.
I’ll cov’nant with my Father;
I’ll promise to obey.
For the temple is a holy place
Where we are sealed together.
As a child of God, I’ve learned this truth:
A fam’ly is forever.

  

Today my roommate and I had the great privilege to attend the Brigham City temple dedication. We had our green tickets ready and we were set to go. Having church at 2:00 p.m. we decided we wanted to attend the earliest session so we could for once enjoy our day. Going into the church I could tell things were different, walking into the chapel everyone was sitting reverently and was enjoying the music of the tabernacle choir. This didn't feel like a normal Sunday, the feel in the room was definitely different. I have attended a few temple dedications before but this one stuck out to me the most. The talks that were said and the strong spirit in the room made it one of my favorites. The temple its self was just absolutely gorgeous, I wish I could have had the time to attend the open house.  

I hope one day I can find the love of my life, the man I want to spend the rest of my life with and enter the house of the lord. 

41 days and counting...

To all y'all that didn't already know.... Halloween is in exactly 41 days!!

That is all..
The end.

Workin' Women

This girl is now officially employed!! Since like the middle of July I have been trying to find a job down in E-Town and goodness has it been a chore. I have never had such a problem finding a job, all of my teenage years I just guarded my life away and didn't have to worry about trying to find a job. I, no joke, have applied for 15+ campus jobs and have had ZERO luck. You'd think out of like 1100 jobs I would be able to get one.... yeah that wasn't the case. Well after a few lectures from my dad I decided I would try a little bit harder.

My roommate told me about this place that was hiring pretty much anyone that walks through the door. So I said what the heck I might as well try it out. At the time I had no idea what kind of work it was, I didn't really care. I just needed a job and I needed one bad. I apply and find out it is a call center that does a variety of survey's for different companies. Now this wouldn't be a problem if I DIDN'T HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE! I seriously get major anxiety when I need to talk to someone on the phone. I don't care who it is, I refuse to order pizza over the phone, I refuse to make doctor's appointments, I refuse to have conversations on the phone because I hate it so much. Talking on the phone is not something I like to do. There are a few exceptions. I will talk to my mom and dad and sister and close friends, but if you do not fit into that close circle of people, there is no way I will talk to you on the phone. It has become a huge problem that I really need to learn to deal with.

Well I decided I could get through this little problem and I went to apply. I didn't expect them to interview me on the spot, so of course I am dressed in my work out shorts and a Utah hoodie, I know perfect interview attire. He sits me down and looks at my past work experience and like always asks me why I didn't apply for a lifeguard job. Then he straight up tells me I will hate this job. Wonderful, the man interviewing me even knows I will hate this job so what the freakin' world am I doing applying for this job. But I needed a job so this wasn't going to stop me, and the plus is that they pay more than minimum wage! BONUS!!

The other night we had a SIX HOUR ORIENTATION..... it was the longest 6 hours of my life. They talked to us for like 4 of those and just told us how to talk to people on the phone and how to keep them interested. One of the main things they talked about was keeping the conversation moving and speaking in a fairly quick manner. Considering I was already nervous talking fast wasn't the problem. The real problem was when I get nervous I talk fast, which results in me slurring my words together. After these 4 excruciating  hours of pure  blahhhness they decided to throw us onto the phones and see how we did. Talk about a heart attack waiting to happen. They get us all set up and say here's the questions, here's how to do it, ready, set, GO! The first few calls were a little nerve racking. You had to say your name and why you were calling and some people were happy to answer the questions and some were not so happy. I had a few people complain that I had just woke them up and they did not appreciate it one bit. On the other hand I had a elderly lady answer every question I had and started to ask me random questions and the end of the interview. It was kinda funny to be answering the questions instead of asking them.

After about an hour of that they told us to wrap it up and go home. I was feeling more confident about my phone skills and I had completed 2 full survey's, which in an hours time is considered good. Me and the kid sitting by me were having a competition to see who could get the most completed surveys. He won by one, but it was just beginners luck.

So all in all the job is off to a good start, but it has only been like one day...

Everything Happens for a Reason

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

-Marilyn Monroe